Stressful months...

“Job stress comes in many different forms and affects your body in various ways. Major stress comes from having too much work, not having enough work, doing work that is unfulfilling, fearing a job layoff, or not getting along with your boss. Minor sources of stress may include equipment that won't work or phones that won't quit ringing.” Source from Yahoo: Managing Stress

I was diagnosed to have major stress problem. The symptoms was damn obvious and is tiring me out. I could'nt even get peaceful sleep at nights. Sometimes I will snap out and feels like I'm going to be crazy at some point. The frustration keep building up. Even dark circles started showing under my eyes and makes me look like a panda. One of my seniors once comment on my looks that " Siti, you look like hell". At that moment, I was shocked by her remarks but reply to her casually "You does'nt look any better". Yeah right, as if I have the time in the world to maintain my appearance.. (Sheesshhh... If I do that, half of my works will not be completed at any rate)

I have tried many ways to heal my tormented soul like pampering myself (either shopping, movies, hair spa or being substitute maid or driver for my mum), not going to work in the weekends, sleep, eat etc but nothing seems to work well. A few of my friends suggest to take a break, away from work and the stress. But, currently is a crucial time. I will not be able to apply for leaves. (Damn, even now I'm not sure if I able to take Hari Raya leave.)

Sometimes I've been wondering, what's keeping me moving at this time?. (Hmm.. I'm still mulling over this).. No, I'm not a wonder woman or genetically superior human being that I can complete all task perfectly (which is, currently an overload). I'm just doing what I can do. So, please don't put anymore pressure on me .... Gimme a break ..