Decisions and choices.

In our every day life, we have to make up our own decisions and take responsibilities of it. All decisions made was done after thinking about it thoroughly, contradicting the pro's n con's, options available for that matters, and the most important thing is the impact and rationale's behind the decision's.

When I was young, I’m having nothing to be worried about since everything was taken care off by my parents. When I was a teenager, I’m worried and about what clothes I’m going to wear, what presents should I get for my best friends, mulling over about my weights, what I’m going to be when I was an adult, (doctor, programmer, engineer, etc), try my best to get good grades or busying myself with puppy love and so on... But now, when I’m an adult, I'm working hard on building a career, maintaining good relationships (like my family, friends, colleagues, etc) and also the unforeseen future.

By the time passing by I’ve realize that each decisions I’m about to make will have a very big impact in my life. What make me so indecisive while making decisions was these kinds of thoughts that I’m having: Am I able to carry it out well? What will happen next? Will I hurt anyone by taking this option? And the scariest part is: What if I screwed up? The uneasiness and insecurity feelings will always lingers in my heart even though I look very confidant at times. (Am I allowed to feel this way?)

Yes, I know that is how our life goes on… By making decisions and choices. And I know that, as normal human being (I’m not genetically superior human being ;) as was claimed by few of my colleagues) we apt to make errors and mistakes because we learned our lessons from that. However, I was blessed to have understanding family, supportive friends and colleagues whom always be the ever listener, sharing their point of views and also giving me other wonderful options. I thanked God and them for that.