Somewhere over the rainbow

Career:
Now, I've realised that at some point I have to put myself above all. Actually its quite ok to be selfish, for your own sake. I think it is time for me to leave my current company and find other company that will appreciate my skills and efforts that I've put for them. Enough said, I'm happy and anxious to leave.. Sooner are better to give a piece to my troubled mind. Hopefully, I won't be swayed by their counter offer.. And, currently, I am buzy looking for better jobs, with better statutory engagements and definitely with better pays ^_^

Relationship:
I've been ridiculed by some of my friends and colleagues about going out with my bestfriend (a guy, whom already have a g/f). They claimed that there's no such a thing as a girl + guy being just friends. There's more to it than it is. Am I that terribly naive? I've been doing some thinking on this while I'm on my breaks.. But, still I don't get it. As to that, I've been avoiding to see him for these past few months. And the truth is, I feel bad avoiding him in a sudden without giving him proper explaination... Really sorry... T_T

Hehehe.. Lately, I've notice that I'm turning to a melancholy meddlesome old women... As the proof to that, I have the songs below rewinding in my head to give me comfort all times..

Somewhere over the rainbow
by Judy Garland

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why oh why can't I?